So why is it that I could be talking to “Mustache” guy or “Harley” guy, yet I still cannot stop thinking about Mr. P, the guy a few posts ago that went out with my friends and I and ended up talking to other girls???
(if you need to catch up) Does going on a dating hiatus work?
I am perplexed by this. The more and more I think about it I still cannot find a reason why I like this guy, yet cannot get him out of my head.
When I think of the term “bad boy”, what comes to mind is:
- A guy who is not necessarily outward with his feelings – appears not to care
- A guy who claims he is not ready for a relationship
- A guy that flaunts that he can have any girl he wants and exudes confidence
- Typically only interested in sleeping with you
- Would prefer to spend more time at the bar or with his friends
As I write this, I am thinking, am I writing a definition for a bad boy or an asshole?
Okay let’s go on…
I have had this overwhelming need to contact Mr. P. Part of me thinks it may be my ego; the fact that he turned around this incident as a master manipulation tactic and made me question my reaction to the incidents that ran up to what would be the demise of our “dating” relationship. My ego and logical side of me says, don’t contact him, at no point in the dating relationship did he prove he was ready for a serious relationship, nor did the dating relationship come with out drama or daily “misunderstandings”.
If I was to contact him, what would I say? I know that if I wrote him, he would respond because he is arrogant and would be intrigued, but what would be the point? I never responded to his final text a month ago, that he was tired of the “bs” and done with the dates. As a guy who reacts, I knew he just wanted to spark a fight out of frustration so I didn’t want to give in, but now I am ready to talk…
Even my friends are perplexed as to why I am wasting a thought on this guy. One friend said I should make “Mr. P is an asshole” my new mantra and repeat it until I believe it.
Lets hope this works and I hold out contacting him if and until I can come up with a better reason why it would be a good idea to have a “bad boy” back in my life.
I always try to think what I have learned from each person I encounter. Perhaps, this lesson is to experience and exercise the feeling of discomfort in the unknown and to open myself to better and more healthy relationships. One can only wish.