So last year….okay and the years before, there has always been a HUGE emphasis on being single, when is he coming? why has it not happened to me yet?
Something happened to me in the past two months. Yes I turned 30, but all of a sudden I started to calm down a bit. Work guy didn’t seem to matter as much, I didn’t feel that anxiety anymore I looked at another couple. I was/am OK with where I am at. Now this might change, but it is a great place to be for now.
I kinda had just thrown down the towel if you will in the last month or so. When Work Guy did not make an effort to come to my Birthday after he said he would….I just didn’t care anymore. What was the point?
Since then I have no clue what has happened but all the Men and Ex’s from my life have gone bonkers! I feel like they have picked up on my energy that I am OK for once and DON’T GIVE A SHIT about their antics anymore.
Work Guy and I have hung out 2 times outside of work. All of a sudden he wants to make plans, he is telling me how hot I am and that 2011 would not have been the same without me, that I am different. He calls all the time and woa….wait for it, he texts me all the time and when I respond HE ANSWERS BACK!!??
I was contacted by not 1 but 3!!! of my Ex’s over Christmas break, all sending me well wishes, one wanting to fuck (his words not mine) and one wanting to be in a relationship again.
My answer to them all, I want kids and a husband. YEP. No more random, meaningless sex. I have set the intention. I want a family of my own. I want love, true friendship, trust, loyalty, laughter and happiness.
2012 is about positivity for me and accepting nothing but the best. Why settle anymore for the half assed while waiting for Mr. Right to come along?
I cleansed my clothes and EVERYTHING I could from my apartment. It’s a fresh start.
Decluttering the men and the things in my life is probably the best thing I have done in a long time.
And for once I am just happy being me, where I am. Can you say the same?